2:30 am octobre 25th Olly died on her birthday. She is two and she's with Ebby. Perrot is playing on the couch.

My little girl Ebby passed away on monday oct. 2nd 2006. Im going to write about it here because I would like a little record of it I guess and i have a hard time saying what I feel about it. PLus i dont think anyone reads this anymore:)

Little ebby was born on Octobre 25th 2004. SHe is a darling, sweet kind demanding rattie, or was I guess. The thing is, I can't think about my life lately without thinking about her. What I think is hard for most people to understand is that i will keep walking and laughing and whatever but there's this longning that doesn't go away. Just this intense unrational feeling of I want to see my little girl again, I want her back. Really it's how I would suppose loosing any loved one feels like, just normaly people don't associate pets with family. They are my family, moreso in some ways than my real family. It's like we have our own family me and the three girls. I raised them up, feed them housed them cared for them when they were sick wich unfortunately was fairly often, watched them grow old. I think of holding her paw often, it's something Ebby did more then the other girls. She'd just put her little paw on one of my finger tips and hold me there. She was very forceful always demanded what she wanted. I burried her beside my cabin at my lot. As morbid as it sounds, I made sure there would be room for her sisters as well. So they would be together. Well that is all.